Undefeated

The definition of the word defeat is To conquer, overcome, subdue imply gaining a victory or control over an opponent. Defeat suggests beating or frustrating: to defeat an enemy. We all have fought many battles and in most cases we have came out on top with the help of our Lord and Savior. 

Twelve years ago, I carried my son for nine months and gave birth without knowing he had Down syndrome. I remember giving birth to him and holding him in my arms, gazing into his eyes, without noticing any signs of Down Syndrome. I could only see perfection!!! I will never forget the doctor coming into the room on February 5, 2008 and breaking the news to me. At this very moment in my life I felt defeated. I was only 26 years old, none of my friends had children with a disability, and to be honest I didn’t know much about Down syndrome. 

After receiving test results confirming that my son did have Down Syndrome, I was absolutely heartbroken. The heartbreak did not last long as I was raised to be strong woman. God blessed me with Nehemiah because he already knew that I was well equipped to do the job. He blessed me with a mother that instilled the necessary values and morals that would prepare me for any battle, roadblock, or obstacle that I would potentially face. The birth of Nehemiah has given me strength and unwavering faith.

• I had faith that God would bless Nehemiah to go to a regular school. (Defeated)

• I had faith that Nehemiah would attend mainstream classes. (Defeated)

• I had faith that Nehemiah would read and he is currently reading 27 site words. (Defeated)

• I had faith that Nehemiah would learn how to do math and he is currently adding using touch point math. (Defeated)

• And the list goes on and on…

I remember questioning God in the beginning. I continually asked Him why me? But, as I reflected, I came up with a more important question, why not me?

The Angel God has gifted me.....